Filled With Crap.

Once again, I’m stupid enough to blog again.

Tomorrow’s Science CA!!!!!! Oh man, I haven’t studied yet. There’s an extremely hideous amount of things to revise. And yeah, if you’re wondering, I’ve been awarded with a horrifying grade for Chinese. A2. Crap, am I not studying enough?? OH, OR MAYBE I SHOULD TRY TO KEEP MY EYES OPEN FOR 168 HOURS AT LEAST, PERHAPS TRY TO SKIP ALL 21 MEALS IN THE WEEK, AND STUDY, AND THAT WAY, HOPEFULLY, I’D GET SHOOTING STARS FOR EXAMS.

I’m just so tired that during classes, I start tearing(and seriously tearing) or no apparent reason, I try to stay awake by slapping myself, and etc.
Dammit, is this called self- abuse or what? And I still have to stay back till 5 tomorrow for choir, and till 6 the next day just for choir as well. I’m not saying its too tough or anything that is negative, I love choir, but the homework and revision after choir, KILLS.

And JUST to add on to the burden, I have a problem that I can’t sleep till its 1 am at least. Isn’t that a torture!?!??!
I’m really tired now. I have to get some sleep. Or I’d get really, really, really dark circles around my eyes.

xoxo,
elle.

It’s over!- Not.

Hellos.

So, firstly, thank you so much, Faith, for your comments on my blog!

So much had been going on with me these days. I’m feeling great everything’s over. But sad that I’m soon getting my results.
Seriously, I shouldn’t be abusing and torturing myself by thinking of the mistakes, “shoulda done” stuff in my papers. But its really sad and depressing to face the fact that I’m abusing myself. Okay, if you don’t get me, I mean that who in the world with a right mind would wanna do such a stupid thing? I don’t know/care/wanna know what’s up with me cause speaking from experience(make me sound so old-.-), I would rather lie to myself and feel good that I don’t know anything, than to be truthful to myself and as a result, getting all acted up and being “upside down”.

As a matter of fact, I like to question, and the worst thing is, I like to question  myself, make myself suffer, make myself worn out, etc. I like to make me stressed, and end up blaming myself for doing so.

I just received the “Choosing Your Secondary Schools” booklet. Flipped through the pages, bearing in mind not to freak out or faint or whatsoever. Others were excited, finding the information about schools they want to go to.
But I took my time. I didn’t wanna know anything about it.

But I flipped to the pages I intended to look at.
I saw the aggregate range of all the schools.

Inside of me, I cried and cried my heart out. Screamed and screamed my lungs out.  I’d cry for the rest of eternity. I’d scream till I ran out of breath.

I just wanted to choke myself to death or something.
But the nightmare was that I would be receiving my results. Then, I would really go mad. No one had ever seen me get really really really mad before. No one but myself.

I’m sorry but this is where I’ve got to end. I’ll write the second part some time in this week,I hope.

Angelsblessings♥

Prelims, PSLE, deadly exams

Sorry everybody for not posting for a long long time. Too tied down with my work.

To think again, two years ago, I never spared a second to think about my PSLE year. And neither did I give a crap about this. Never. Never did think about my PSLE, my 2007, my year of total tragedy, and all seemed so fine until it popped out in front of me, leaving me with a bad shock of my 12 years of life.

In short, I never treated time preciously and same goes for studies. Until now, I needed them so much, I’d go really emo over it. Like now. LOL.  Counting, there isn’t much time to go until the start of doomsday. The thought of Prelims gives me shivers. The thought of PSLE gives me headache. The thought of PSLE and Prelims leaves me with nose-bleeds.

Argh, curse the papers that are set for PSLE and Prelims.I can’t think any further now. Will try to post as often as possible.

I gotta go study. For the sake of my studies. AND Prelims as well as PSLE. Hey, comparing this post to my other ones, its way shorter isn’t it?Look what PSLE can do to P6s? Sigh… Looks like I gotta go…

Have a good day and thanks for tolerating my crappy post. (Sorry for writing such rubbish in the first place. Studying For PSLE used up all my brain juice.)

Hurray for the mess!

Yeap.

I did take a look at my cupboard yesterday evening.

And guess what? I nearly fainted. I thought my blood pressure went terribly low and I felt a little light-headed.
I was like, did I do this?
And yes I did was the answer.
You can never imagine the time I took to clear the rubbish. I mean, rubbish in a sense that I don’t really care about them…I mean,you know what i meant do you? And, I took everything out and all my stuff just fell “gracefully” from my table like it was basically nobody’s business.

Crap.

Then I was like what do I do now? So, I sat on the floor, right beside my stuff, and started sorting things out. And, man, an hour seemed like eternity to me and I successfully got backaches. Yay, everyone says.
But it was worth the time, at least my cupboard dont give me that threatening “look” like its gonna squash me without a care in the world.

Guess where all my stuff went?

Yup. under my table. YAY!
At least I don’t get to see them.
Well, at least it’ll work out fine for me for about a week or so and automatically someone will make me bring my stuff to somewhere it actually belongs. Which is very much obvious that the place is no where.

But anyway, at least it solves my problems for now.

Hm, nite nite, I’m tired.

And hurray for mass clearing my mess!
Byes!♥

Don’t be stupid, Michelle.

Alright. I’ve been acting totally random these days.
About three days ago, I was at Vivocity, the bookstore called pageone. I found this really insane book and for no good reason, I got so desperate to buy it, I made my parents flare at me. So in the end, I got myself another book. With a condition attached that I had to get another book instead the one I got really despo about, and get a chinese book.

That wasn’t easy alright. It was plain hard.

The book was hard to read. It was just too hard for someone like me who doesn’t really score in Chinese. Okay so I hadn’t start reading anything on it yet.
So, I’m facing problems, friendship, exams, whatever you name them, I got’em.
I’ve got a total mess under my table. cause my bin refused to consume anymore rubbish and I am stuck to my table so no one gets to clear the bin for me. Or maybe I’m too lazy to do it for my own sake.

Oh well, needless to say, you can see I’m very much glued to my table. I like lying on it. Though there is nothing much to lie on cause where ever I lay my head on, it will be resting on papers. Loads of them.
Perhaps one day I should take a picture of my poor table and post it eh? You’ll be amazed how I can survive my 365 days.

Haha, its horrid. Whenever I look up at the cupboard that is just resting on my table,(its a huge one) it look like its threatening me to clear some stuff in there otherwise it would just give way and no doubt, I’d be flattened by my heavy stuff up there.

Alright, I shall clear some stuff now, most probably only 1% of my stuff can be cleared. Sad eh? Okay okay, that’s it, I better start clearing the mess now…

Bye!!